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12:57 pm: Scales and Glitter
I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain.
- Bene Gesserit Litany Against Fear

The last week or so has brought an increasing sense of being closed in, partly because of a lack of access to the activities that are as essential as breathing to me. Or at least, the inability to enjoy it as much as usual - like hitting the gym. Might be that I'm looking forward to one less drain on time I am so short on, 3 more weeks (because I have not yet started on this week's sessions) before the bond-sponsorship comes to an end. Up to this stage, the experience in the new gym has been a relatively good one, though I miss the mats a lot. On the other hand, I don't really miss the endless chain of injuries. Haha. Still thinking about how to go forward from here. Inertia is realz.

Thinking also about how to write something about the kids. This is difficult to unravel, since I'm so deeply involved in unraveling the mysteries of their working methods (or flaws therein), that I find it difficult to apply any sort of imagination to what else they could be.

The cookie side of things has been frozen, as part of the general transition. It'll take a while to get back on track, but in the meantime getting to bake other things is a nice alternative. Do need to get back to the baking seshs, too. Sunday morning, maybe.

There's a restlessness within that isn't settling down. It feels like large wings beating against brick walls or iron bars. But it can wait a little more, I think. Checked out some places to pop in and out of... The schedule can't make space for most, and I really should be careful about that. Also, the absurdly large number of travel posts up and down my newsfeed suggests that it's a bad, bad time to go anywhere if I don't want to see compatriots. On the bright side, a probable return to HK! Which, seriously, if not for the people, isn't that tempting to me. But HK Disneyland. And the Dragon's Back. See how.

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